This is Where I Begin Again: A Blog About Self-Love and Growth
Hi, I’m Sarah.
A spiritual being having a deeply human experience.
This blog was born from pain, but also from truth, love, and the desire to come home to myself. I’ve been through some of life’s heaviest lessons—trauma, betrayal, grief, and identity loss—but I’ve also found meaning, clarity, and healing in the darkest places. This space is my way of opening that journey up to others.
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From Law and Policing to PTSD and Spiritual Awakening
For most of my adult life, I worked in the legal world and eventually became a police officer—a role I loved and felt deeply aligned with. It gave me purpose. But within a year, a series of traumatic incidents shattered that stability. I was diagnosed with PTSD and suddenly found myself at the edge of everything I once knew.
At the same time, my personal life was falling apart. My wife, someone I trusted completely, betrayed me with a colleague during a time when I was most vulnerable. That betrayal cut deeply—not just because of what happened, but because it confirmed how isolated I had become.
Everything I had built—my career, my marriage, my sense of self—came crashing down.
Choosing to Heal (Even When It’s Messy)
There wasn’t one big moment where everything clicked. Healing didn’t come wrapped in a retreat or a neatly tied bow. It was sitting with the pain, day after day. It was choosing not to run. It was learning to take responsibility for my life—every corner of it—and using that as a catalyst for transformation.
I didn’t want to bypass my experience with spiritual clichés or surface-level affirmations. I wanted to be honest about how raw, lonely, and confronting inner work really is. And I wanted to speak to others who know what that feels like—especially fellow first responders, survivors of betrayal, and anyone navigating a deep spiritual shift.
Why This Blog Exists
At first, I started writing because it helped me survive. Getting the words out eased some of the pressure inside. Over time, it became more than just journaling—it became a way of reclaiming my voice.
This blog is my heart on the page.
It’s for anyone who has felt broken by trauma, lost in betrayal, or unsure of who they are anymore. It’s for those seeking real healing—not the kind that looks pretty on social media, but the kind that’s raw, honest, and lived.
What I Hope You Feel Here
If you’re reading this, I hope you feel:
- Seen—even in your darkest moments.
- Heard—without needing to explain everything.
- Safe—to be your whole self, especially the messy parts.
- Connected—to someone who understands.
Healing is hard. But you are not alone.
Let’s Grow Together
I invite you to reflect, comment, and share your own thoughts. This is a space for open, non-judgmental conversation. We’re all imperfect. We’re all doing our best. And sometimes, being triggered is just an invitation to look deeper within.
If this blog gives even one person the courage to face themselves with more compassion, then it’s doing what it was meant to do.
Welcome to the journey back to self.
With love,
Sarah
🤝 Support Resources For Readers in Crisis
If you’re in pain or struggling, please know there is support available. You don’t have to go through this alone.
🌏 Australian-Based Support:
- Beyond Blue (Mental Health & Crisis Support) – www.beyondblue.org.au
- Lifeline (24/7 Crisis Support) – Call 13 11 14 or www.lifeline.org.au
- Phoenix Australia (Trauma Recovery) – www.phoenixaustralia.org
🌍 Global Resources:
- The Mighty (Community for trauma and mental health stories) – www.themighty.com
- TherapyRoute (Find trauma therapists worldwide) – www.therapyroute.com
Thank youuuuuu!!!! Please please keep writing. You are a permission slip and a warm hug all at the same time. I love you.