Hello, beautiful friend
I want to share something that’s been unfolding for me — not polished or packaged, just real, raw, and still processing.
Attracting from Wounds vs. Standing in Worth
Recently, I started talking to someone new. A woman. Actually, not just a woman — a woman fully in her power. And that feels so new and confronting in all the best ways.
I’ve been reflecting on the kind of energy I’ve historically attracted — and if I’m honest with myself, I’ve often been drawn to wounded women. There was something familiar about their pain, something I understood deeply. Maybe even something in me wanted to heal it. But the truth is, I hadn’t been attracted to the divine feminine — to women who are grounded, whole, and standing in their power — because, in some way, I didn’t feel worthy of it.
I wasn’t ready to stand in my power.
A Woman in Her Power
This woman I’ve met — she is in her divine power. She’s spiritual, grounded, strong, and stunning. She’s the kind of beautiful that feels like it belongs in another realm. She facilitates, and radiates this fiery Aries energy. And yet, she’s soft in spirit, conscious in her communication, and deeply connected.
And I’m sitting here wondering… am I ready for this?
When Real Connection Feels Intimidating
I’m used to connections where I feel needed. Where I can lead, or hold, or help. But now, I feel like I’m the one being asked to rise — to show up in my own worth, and stand beside someone who doesn’t need fixing, just seeing.
To be honest, I feel intimidated. There’s this little voice inside whispering, “She’s too much for you. Too beautiful. Too powerful.” And yet, I know — I know — that the universe placed this in front of me because I’m ready for it. I asked for this. I wanted conscious connection. Spiritual alignment. Growth.
Now I have to believe I’m worthy of it.
“Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it.”
– Rumi
Lessons from the Past & Choosing Kindness
It’s funny — I went on a date recently with someone lovely, but I didn’t feel that spark. She was nervous around me, and I realised I was completely at ease. There was no anxiety, no feeling of being seen in the way that rattles your ego. And I liked her, truly, but I knew I didn’t have the space for something that didn’t ignite my soul. So, I told her — gently, kindly, honestly. And she thanked me for my honesty. It reminded me how far I’ve come. It just wasn’t what I was looking for.
Meeting the Divine Feminine Mirror
But this new connection… it’s different. There’s already this energetic pull. She’s been in my dreams. I feel nervous. Me. Nervous. And not because of fear — but because I feel the weight of something potentially real, and that challenges the part of me still learning to feel safe in love, in trust, and in worthiness.
So, I’m sitting with this.
Sitting With Self-Worth & Staying Open
I’m reminding myself: I am worthy. Of love. Of deep connection. Of conscious partnership. I deserve to be seen — not for my wounds, but for my light.
Even if this doesn’t evolve into something long-term, I’m already grateful for the mirror she’s held up. She’s showing me where I’m still growing. And that’s sacred.
Thanks for sitting with me in this moment. If you’re navigating your own journey of self-worth or healing in love, know this — you are not alone. The path is not always easy, but it is always worth walking.
In love and reflection,
Sarah Taylor
